I’ll never be her

I know I’ll never be her

I’ll never be your first. 
I’ll never mean as much as she did.
I was just second best. 
Or 3rd, 4th, 5th.
When the rest didn’t work out,
I was there.

So here I am now. 
And this is all I’ll ever be. 
No matter how much you deny it and say it worked out
I’ll always know I was never your first choice.
I was just the only convenient one.
The only one that worked out.

I was the one who nagged you,
who had to convince you,
seduce you.
Even then it barely worked.
Even then it took more and more reasoning.
Only so I’d stop bugging you did you say yes.
Only to please me and make me happy did you agree.

None of this is ever what you wanted.
You never wanted me.
None of this is ever what you expected.
But it was what worked.
And I worked to get you, 
but you’ll never want to work for me.  

(Source: evxotica, via ubarelygaveafuck)

It’s exhausting competing with a video game

I’m second best to a fucking video game

xthecoldfrontx:

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(via very-fancy-detective)

But Somewhere In Neverland acoustic is the cutest and so pretty because violin and Alex’s laugh and it makes me so insanely happy

cheefkief:

if the government can just shut down because it decided it didn’t want to meet an important project deadline, then so can i

I

(via dollyuhh)

Okay the bus should just wait a few minutes to come cause my legs are hella asleep like if I try to get up I’ll fall and of don’t wanna look stupid even though no one is out here okay so bus just give me a minute please

I feel like I have to try harder to keep him interested. To keep him wanting me.
And I’m getting exhausted from trying so hard.

Did he even really want me to begin with?

dylanobrinen:

Dylan O'brien on New Girl's "2x23 Virgins" episode.

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